Confused thoughts over Misleading Actions

For one, am pretty sure that denying the obvious is like fighting a losing battle and is just plain stupidity. After all the stupidity I went through Jayem, I had been very much particular of my actions and words. Afraid and cautious of what lies ahead.
Suddenly the usual brave and risk-taker me just disappeared and went off to somewhere. So okay, I'm not a complete and total fat coward. Going straight to the point, as I sit here stating my mind and calming down my heart, memories would just suddenly flood down. If there is something I get to hate, those are misleading actions. It's been a while of course, since I got to know that person. He has been a teammate from my old team. We're not that close either way, or maybe I just thought so, right?
We throw up arguments to each other every now and then. I just don't know the reason why but I feel so uncomfortable with him. The way he calls my name, he looks and smiles at me? It makes me irritated in some point of time. So in the end, people end up thinking that I like him. But as if, how can you possibly like a person that easily?
Honestly, I barely know him. All I know is that he has girlfriend and is engaged to that girl. On the other hand, I am somewhat committed to somebody else already and is planning to spend the rest of my life with that person. This would only complicate things, besides the fact that one particular friend of ours, definitely likes him. Though, some of our office mates, keep on saying that he is exceptionally sweet towards me? So okay, that makes me feel awkward AGAIN!
He sure has an amazing way to make me feel awkward and confused though. Actions in which are completely misleading in a particular way whereas it is too difficult for me to understand. Of course, I don't want to put malice on it so I try my best to put a gap between us and emphasize our friendship. I don't want to think that he is enjoying crossing that gap. To think that I don't usually hug a guy unless they are close to me for a very long time or perhaps special (like a boyfriend perhaps?).
But definitely this guy has done that. He did hug for 2 times now. The first one was on New Year's Eve, in front of our old teammates and team lead. The second one was earlier, if he is to ask a favor, really now a hug isn't necessary. I got shocked when he hugged all of the sudden and asked me if he can lend him money. Asking a favor is fine, but the hug isn't. So I get to question my co-trainee way back, as it seems that particular seems too comfortable to me which of course I fine weird.

Oh well, much for speaking out my mind, guess I will just go with the flow. Come what may, I think? :)

This is something I had been looking forward too.. A new start, a sign of hope.

Okay, for the past few months I had been in the company of these people when I started at Sykes. I could not deny that I had learned too much from them. But I suffered hell a lot from them. From the very beginning of my path with them, I felt only pressure and agony from their expectations. Though, you can say that I had adjusted to their unjust ways, I just don't want to be influenced by such evil doings. I know it's like way judgmental, but I couldn't help it. While other people were doing their jobs properly, they were like in a "petix mode". Thinking they get their salary with their commissions?! It's just too unfair for me. 

I wouldn't say much anymore, since it's all gonna be a part of the past. I just didn't feel that it was worth my loyalty nor my mature work ethic. So instead of showing them my real professionalism, I showed absurd childishness and improper behavior. After all the bad treatment shown to me, why should I be good?

Enough, blabbers. I would be starting the training under a new account and a new team. Hope things would be right and satisfying. ^_^

Post Holiday Celebration with my Long-Time Friends. ^_^

It's been a while that we get to gather around. We barely get to see each other since everybody's busy with their own personal and professional life. We can't deny that missing each other is a part of our friendship, hence despite everything it makes each passing day funny that even with the hindrances we are still strong. We are very much aware that celebrating the holidays together would become too hard for each other since our schedules just won't complement with each other. But oh well, at least we get to meet again. It's quite short but worth the visit.

Step by step. Focus on the New Goal.

This is the last day of my RD. I really don't like to go to work yet. Still enjoying my rest day despite all the wish wash. Hahhaa! Yeah right, anyhow, I think I have been doing my best in fulfilling my goals for this year. If am not gonna start now, nothing will really happen. Got off the bed and did my job. Gradually but surely am gonna be back on track with my routines. My awareness for my diet is more and more serious. Though am not gonna jump in the bush at the extent of getting sick. I am so like getting there, honey.

An hour and a half in the gym working out ain't that bad. Looking forward in gradually increasing my momentum. Still finished some chores so that's a good thing. Hopefully, am gonna finish the listing out of my grocery items in the bin by this weekend. Somehow, am losing my mood in going out this weekend. I just don't know why.

I just want to work out and spend my time being fit and healthy. Oh well, must fight the lazy mood! What a life!

Saying Goodbye to 2011

Farewell 2011. It has been a hard year for me, but luckily I survived you. All those shitty disappointments, heartaches and tears that year has caused me, it has been surprising how I managed to withstand it all. Hopefully, 2012 will a better year. Lots of smiles and laughter. However, people said that 2012 ain't my year since am under the year of the Snake. Better proceed with precaution. ^_^